What better way to start this off than use the chorus from an old song by the rapper whose name helped me determine what I’d call my first personal site in 3 years? I’ve been looking forward to this post since I bought the domain name in November 2010. Eventually it’ll also be accessible via the url www.articulateblackguy.com. Figured it’d be a good idea to put that domain to use since I paid for it during a frenzy of purchasing “property” in a predominantly white and blank e-neighborhood. I’ve got a couple other names, but those are for my grown folk entertainment businesses that I’m recruiting talent for. There are a lot of ugly people out there.
Man, I’m so happy to be home!
I’ve spent nearly 3 years tied up in increasingly successful and award-winning group blogs. Three Ways to Take It was my baby with a dirty name. When I wrote my last post there, I shed a thug tear on my keyboard. As I was scribing away, I realized how much time, energy, and dedication had been put into running that site. It was the first thing I created on the internet that people really read and came to expect a certain level of quality from. Without 3 Ways, I probably wouldn’t have ended up writing for Single Black Male and who knows where I’d be?
That tear that hit my keyboard on that last post wasn’t just a tear of sadness. It was also a tear of relief. Between my increasingly hectic yet lovable day job, taking the reins at SBM, trying to interact with people on Twitter, going to networking events, running 3 Ways, and trying to live up to some ridiculous expectations from people that don’t know me and from myself, I was stretched and stressed. And within all this, I was always concerned about my personal brand. As much as I loved both blogs, I felt like I was diluting myself.
I experienced a lot of frustration over the last year. I’d go out to events and introduce myself and mention 3 Ways and people would get the twisted face. Then I’d mention SBM and it would click and they’d start introducing me as thee SBM. I had people blatantly tell me they would read one blog but not the other, which in turn meant they wouldn’t see much of the work that I dedicated hours of my life to. Do you know what it feels like to log 15-20 hours a week on stuff that you’re getting minimal to no credit for? Yeah, I love writing and love running a website, but I also love recognition. I’m decent at running sh*t. I want credit for what I’m good at. It’s difficult to get that when you’re buried behind the scenes like a roadie.
Truth be told, I considered leaving SBM in January. I had started writing a goodbye post in my head that never made it to WordPress, but trust me when I tell you it would’ve been one of those 1,000 worders that was written in 20 minutes. I wanted my pen name to mean something and not just be a character in a book I didn’t conceptualize. I wanted to reinvigorate 3 Ways and take us out of the rut that was starting to resemble that awful Cleveland Cavs losing streak. “What’s going on with 3 Ways?” became much more a sharp pain in my side than a concerned question. After all, I created that and my name was at the forefront of the site. I took responsibility for it. I couldn’t blame the other writers for achieving success in their own lives and not having the time and energy to dedicate to a blog that didn’t pay their bills or help their careers in any way.
But for a myriad of reasons when I started thinking rationally and not emotionally, I stayed onboard with SBM and decided 3 Ways needed to be decommissioned. It’s turned out to be the best decision(s) I’ve made…next to starting up this personal blog. I feel like a writer again and not an intellectual tap dancer. I’m looking forward to being able to post what I want, when I want, and with no expectations other than the post will go up when I hit publish. For those of you that are joining me as I navigate the labyrinth in my mind via prose, thanks and I hope you enjoy. Do check out my work on SBM. I could use the help on Mondays.
I’m so f*cking happy to be back.
Cartwheels in Boxers,
P.S. I’m still doing some work around the house here. This is new and all. I think I need to have a housewarming party.