Long time, no see…though you’ve probably seen me somewhere else. Whatever the case, I realized today that it’s been over 2 weeks since my last post here. I also realized that my Professional in Human Resources (PHR) certification exam is one week from today. Needless to say, I’ve become disconnected and somewhat withdrawn from the blog and social media scene. I don’t think I’ve ever worked as hard as I’m working right now. Between the exam preparation, my day job turning into Hurricane Shitshow aka the busiest season ever, the behind the scenes crap that comes with running a big blog (SBM), my email, and keeping up with my writing obligations, my plate is overflowing with food — much of it I’ll have to force myself to eat. Someone pass the Pepcid AC.
I’m even finding this simple update post difficult to write. It’s 7:15am. I’ve been up for well over an hour. And all I can think about is everything that needs to be done in the next seven days. My brain is already doing 100mph on a freeway to no where, and I haven’t even gotten to work yet.
By the time you see this, I’ll most likely be buried in some stack of papers or Excel sheet dealing with global compensation. If not that, I’ll be adorning my magical cloak so I can be on my invisible sh*t with a dingy red notebook containing months of study, stress, and struggle.
Honestly and study guide aside, I’ve learned a lot — both good and bad — about myself during this month of my professional rapture. And I can tell you that once I get my passing score on this exam and the busy season is over at my job, I’ll never allow myself to get into this situation again.
As optimistic as I’ve tried to be, I can’t help but notice how some of the issues I’m dealing with today were set in motion months ago. Much of this stress could’ve been avoided. But since I didn’t take the necessary steps, I’m getting a painful reality check. I’d talk about the lessons learned now, but I know the tone will be off and it won’t translate the way I’d like it to. So I’ll save it until after I triumph. It’d make for a much better straight-to-dvd production.
The feeling that I have right now is one that I’ve had before. It’s only January and I don’t like it. I’m already thinking about vacation locales, drinks with umbrellas, and the absence of internet. I’d plan something, but I don’t have the energy, time, or motivation to focus on anything other than what’s coming up. Maybe I need to put a picture of a beach above my desk. It never hurts to have a prize to eye. Granted, being able to put PHR after my name in my email signature is a prize in itself, but I’d rather be looking forward to things that aren’t work and responsibility. I need respite — a large dose of respite.
I’ll be back writing ferociously on the other side of this exam. Please keep me, my health, and my sanity in your prayers…well, if you’re into that sorta thing. Talk to you soon. And much like I’ll be doing over the next week, stay positive.
Struggling with the utmost realness,